Thanks for the feedback guys. I don’t usually associate myself with the word “coping”; have never really used it before to describe myself, so it was nice to get some outside opinions on repression and coping
I do realize that repression of ones emotions is very unhealthy but unfortunately it is a habit of mine for a couple years now so it will take a lot to break.
I have had a not so great past so it makes sense that i started repressing those emotions in exchange for a very nice numb feeling. I do however, function normally in my daily life and im not negative so it doesn’t exactly impede me.
People deal with situations in differently ways, my sister cries for months, my brother disappears, my parents both bury themselves in work, and i just acknowledge and move on by shoving my emotions away and pretending nothing happened. I have tried talking but it really only makes things worse by bringing up bad memories. Hopefully i can find a better way to cope than repression one day.