Feel really ashamed of myself....yes I have implied to T that she's special to me. I've struggled to tell her, but did tell her several times that she's very very important to me, and that I hope she understands how important she is to me. I've told her that she's among the very short list of people who are immensely important to me. I've said that she's not interchangeable with a group of other people because each person is unique.