Two problematic relationships are affecting me right now. A good friend who I have always been loyal to made some hurtful comments about the fact that I had to move back with my dad temporarily and made judgmental comments about me not being in a secure relationship and pointed out all the things she is doing "right" and what I am doing wrong. Things have been a little rocky with her recently...maybe I need a break from talking to her. However, words cannot be unsaid, and when you are already feeling like you are not good enough, it is hard to get back on track.

Honestly, I had to pretty much give up my place due to financial problems, but also being completely alone in my place was getting to be a little unsafe for me. I hate to admit I kind of need to have someone monitoring me right now, but I just don't trust myself for reasons related to Bipolar. I'm just not where I want to be in life, so it was hurtful. Then, my mom said a few things about me that were really critical out of nowhere related to body image....she can be very triggering. I have issues in that area.

I lost my therapist since she only takes Medicare. I will need to find someone, but in the meantime, I need suggestions to hold me over as far as what helps everyone. Change is hard for me too and so is trusting someone new, so that's a challenge too with a new therapist, but I will follow through on that.