This will sound stupid and probably is. Something really made me think about listening to my conscience more. It seems like it should be simple to do, but I don't so often.
I'm a terrible human being? Yes. I have a lot to offer but none of it really matters. So what does that tell me? I need to listen to my conscience more. I do what's more for the greater good or someone else's good or even my own feelings of good. None of those are always right. I'm so rarely right that I can't trust myself. So who can I trust? So many people want me to trust them, and because so many before have used "trust me" as part of a lie including myself, I don't have a way to know whom to trust. I think love has been used as a weapon so often on me that it's not to be believed either. Love is a lie? Seems to be, based on all the people that tell me they love me. Now I'm left with me and my conscience, the only two people I've never trusted and the only two I cannot get away from. This is really smaller parts of the crisis I've been in my entire life and now I see that the best plan of action for me is to do nothing. But, lack of action is an action. I cannot therefore do nothing.
So is there a true point to existence?