im glad i found this website, it eases my worries and anxiety a little bit. im in the military and been experiencing on and off depression. sometimes it last for a week but more often, i suffer for a month or so. everytime im depressed, i feel like im alone by myself and nobody cares for me. that's why sometimes i dont want to get attached or be friendly to anybody because when they leave me, i ended up experiencing a crash in my emotional state.
last month i went on leave of absense. went home and reunited with my family. i never realize how i miss them so much now that im back to work. i often cry and want to go home and quit my job but im stuck to my job for another year. everytime i see a picture of them, memories and events from my last visit will just flood my memory then i will feel lonely and sad all throughout the day.
i cant concentrate with my work, i cant sleep at night. im afraid to talk to a doctor because i dont want to be labeled as crazy. i don't know what to do anymore. i just cry and cry just to calm me down. please help me.