Mckell, As I read your post I thought from what i know of you here, I can't believe you would feel that afraid of "showing" yourself. Then I though to of how I feel when I journal, and I remember telling T that sometimes I've read back my journals and thought what a load of crap, I sound like someone trying to know all the answers and I know nothing. Its only just this moment as I read your post that I realised that is one of my charactor flaws or survival techniques, I pretend to know all the answers and then proceed to try and get rid of my fear of not knowing anythinig on to others, I really dont like this about myself, infact writing this feels me with a sense of shame. But if someone else had just typed this post and I was reading it, I'd think, well trying to pretend you have all the answers ain't no big crime, but why does it feel like it is? I guess if you showed your T your writings she too wouldnt react to them like you have yourself? why do we allways feel so hard on ourselfs?