I think a lot of the pushback you are seeing is not that people don't want to support you doing whats right for you but rather this:


It's taken a lot of us a very long time and work through a lot of denial to accept the diagnosis and the fact that we're going to be on meds for life. Maybe that's not everybody (and maybe not you) but I think for the majority of people with BP, it's the reality.


I know I lived years in denial of my diagnosis. I kinda knew it was there but thought I could handle it. I could, for the most part, "pass" and manage my symptoms so others couldn't see them, but my quality of life was miserable and I made many bad decisions that I otherwise would have avoided (like a 13 year marriage to a man who verbally, emotionally and financially abused me while I worked like a dog to support us and he drank). I think if I was not chronically and severely depressed I would not have stayed. I finally reached an episode that I could not hide and I was afraid I was going to die. I realized that I needed help and although I'm still struggling, my life is better already and I would never want to go back there.


Anyway, my experience is different than yours. All our experiences are different. But I feel mentally and physically stronger on my meds and don't see them as a crutch. That's not a judgement of you, that's just how I feel about me.