Thank you, that's actually a very good advice, I know because I usually do that. Now lately the finances haven't been good enough for most of that stuff though. In addition I've had an important exam, I've been a lot physically sick and now an dthen there has been some big crashes between me and my boyfriend. So it has stacked up with a lot of things without me having had the opportunity to "comfort" myself much. But it was going very good anyway (untill sunday)... I just got a calendar I ordered, the first thing I've bought for myself in ages, and it was even more cool than I first thought. My boyfriend is buying us a house, something I have always dreamt of, and I am even free to decorate everything all the walls, roof and floor (within low costs, but still). Maybe because it has been so much stress in the past my mind kinda crashed when I could finally relax a bit, I know it's quite usual. But since this happen quite often with me I don't really accept it no matter what anymore. I have felt what it is to be happy (I was almost manic when pregnant, except that it was in a very good way- ecstatic!), and I don't require that all the time, but I want to get rid of the big dark cloud that is constantly hitting for me...

Enough about that. If the money that suddenly apeared on my account is something I can keep, then I'm going to spend a whole day shopping in Amsterdam, and if that can't at least get me out of the pajamas nothing can!

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