So I’m not in therapy right now. I scheduled an appointment with a new therapist and the first appointment available was in March (2 weeks from now). I’ve been severely depressed moreso than I ever have in my life. If you know the Dass-21 test, I took it and got 20 out of 21 for depression. I’ve been really fixated on suicide spending a lot of my free time looking into it. Now since I’m not in therapy, I also can’t go to a psychiatrist and can’t get a medication changed. She gave me a safety plan but I just don’t feel strongly about being able to do all that stuff. I also have a crisis line I have messaged that works but I've been doing it multiple times a day and I feel bad for being there excessively. What should I do next?