Ugh!

Got my appraisal this morning and underwriting approved me this afternoon. Took 19 days of torture from accepted offer to today. Still have exactly a month until close.

I am happy, scared and freaked out. I have been devolving every day. Worse and worse and I fear it will actually get worse now that it is really happening. It is not just MH stuff I worry about, it is seizure also. This could get life-threatening fast. It has gotten so bad my daughter mentioned how worse I seem, and that is saying a lot!

I can start tossing stuff out and packing which will help with my MH issues. I had been running a bit to take the edge off but mother nature cut that off by bringing blizzards and subzero temps with wind chill.

To make matters worse, my realtor is confusing me. She called the other day to check up and let me know what is going on and then we chatted a little. She essentially asked if I missed her since we aren't out together nearly everyday looking at houses anymore. I didn't want to sound like a pathetic loser so I just said 'yeah it is a bummer'. *sigh* I am pretty pathetic that the idea of casual friendship is causing so much anxiety.