Thanks, TMC. I think he's just trying to be straightforward with me, like he promised to me, but it's also really difficult. Especially for him to tell me that right before he's going away, which I'm already struggling with (and he doesn't seem to understand why...). I really hope I can get him to understand and accept and validate the attachment stuff. Because I do like him as a T in many ways...but it's also a huge adjustment from MC to him (I know I should say from ex-T to him, but no, in reality, it's MC to him). And MC was/is bad for me in many ways. But he was (is?) also so accepting of me and my attachment and, until recently, any outside contact. And so I miss that. I miss the reassurance (even though...that was ultimately probably bad for me, too).

But like I said, I do want to make this work with T because I feel like he has the potential to really help me...but I also need to feel accepted and not shamed, no matter how attached I am. I need him to understand that I'm shifting from MC who, for several years, basically had no outside contact boundaries to someone who has fairly clear ones (though apparently not clear enough to me!) As much as T says I think about the relationship more than any other client...I know I need to talk about it more with him. Because I need to feel safe and secure with him (well, as safe and secure as I'm able to be...) to really do the work...