I have only ever hugged S.

C offered a hug a while back...months ago...at the end of an intense double session, but I told him I wasn't there yet. And, I wasn't. I wanted to hug S...not C. But, lately, the urge has been an urge to hug C specifically. So...maybe someday.

Every step closer to C feels like a step away from S, though, so I resist these things.