LT: I hope what I wrote you don't see as judging, because I am not.

I do think maybe that your T hasn't experienced this level of attachment so quickly before, and it has thrown him a bit. I also think that he seems to really think about what you tell him, and adjust accordingly. I do like him based on what you have said. It makes sense to me that your senses are heightened in a manner because of everything that has happened with MC. You are already hyper-aware of people's responses I feel, and may be extra heightened with this T right now.

Just my opinion, of course

I also agree that you shouldn't feel ashamed for having these feelings, though I understand why you might.