Thanks, jDNA. I worry, too...my intent wasn't really to go into attachment work, but I think the combo of leaving ex-T and being close to leaving MC is making me really...for lack of a better word, attachment-y. I need someone there to be a stable base for me, in a sense, as I'm making that transition away from MC. I think part of why I ended up e-mailing MC earlier this week is because of those doubts--and also because T is out of town.

I think I need to talk to him some more about it. Just be honest that I need a T who can help me make that transition. Like I don't want to just shift all my attachment for MC onto him--especially if he can't handle it. But I need someone to help make me less dependent on authority figures. To get there though, I'll need validation and acceptance. I need him to just be like, "Yep, LT is going to be rather attached to me and that's OK and I can deal with it and take whatever she throws at me." That's what I need to hear, I think. Because as much as he's said a couple times that if I become attached, it's not like he's just going to drop me (or that he can't ethically abandon me--like yeah, that doesn't help to hear!)...I need to feel it, to genuinely believe it. I need to know he'll be in it for the long haul, whatever that entails, which might include the random intrusive text or needy e-mails or whatever. And he needs to be honest with me whether he feels OK with that...