I apologize I just can't even read another post right now. Does anyone even read mine? (I wouldn't :P Oh! don't listen to me!) I'm just having a very stressful day. I WANT to catch up and read like EVERYTHING, partly because i want to stay distracted... I did something that risks getting my heart broken again...and I'm on edge waiting the news. I came on this site because of the "internet addictions" thread, and I'm afraid of getting that again, just because I'm using it to pacify my pain...I'm gonna try to take advantage of the home company I have though now, but...

well, can I ask a kinda personal question?? Does anyone else struggle with "intimacy"-like, does anyone get anxious because their partner wants to...you know...but you just don't feel like it or are afraid to make a commitment and well, frankly be disappointed or disappoint them?? I mean, the literal intimacy was getting better in recent weeks, was getting that spark back, but I guess I just still have this habit of fear...plus, I'm just so out of my mind, forgetting **** a lot lately, that I feel like it might distract me. Silly me though, it probably would clarify things for me. ha! *sigh* Anyone else struggling?? thanks for listening!