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Originally Posted by willowtree32
@Nola0250
Thanks for your support. I am having trouble right now with trying to figure out who I am vrs is this an illness? Why do I do the things I do? I know in my heart I am not a bad person. It's hard looking I to the mirror and being very genuine with yourself and saying "you may have a mental illness"
I struggle with accepting this but also know that if it is the case then I could be on my way to healing more then I could if I resist. I don't want to have damaged relationships. Its a very thin line, being open about it, because I also don't want to be judged or looked at as if I am crazy. It has been a rough year and It feels as though it is not over yet. Hopefully I can gain some insight and it feels good to talk to people on here about it. I feel less crazy.
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I could have written your reply a few months ago! I was just diagnosed (late 40's) and felt a lot of optimism - like, there's HELP for this?! And there have been frustrations and setbacks, but I am improving. You will too. At first I was so excited to have some kind of answer, that I wanted to tell everyone. I held back and I'm so glad I did. I only told a few close people and one of them I regret telling. She won't spread it around, but I know it makes her uncomfortable and I think she wishes she didn't know. There's a lot of judgement out there. But not on this forum!