One more quick post, forgot to connect this thought....

What brings me here today is this sad realization that my anxiety/worry over this old friend thing is actually affecting my love life. Like, it shouldn't. I don't feel guilty about the relationship. It's just that being in this mixed hopeful/dreadful state is affecting my ability to relax and you know, be intimate. This old friend thing only involves me, it's not a friend my partner and I share, so I can't like share my feelings about it with him really...or I mean, if I did, he wouldn't understand. He'd think I was being selfish or I should just shrug it off. If only it were that simple. I mean, I AM trying! I DO try to push away the thought, the overthinking, but it is just my nature. Ya know?
Ok, I'm done venting.
Happy Friday folks! *hugs*