Well I was married but the last 13 years of the 33 year mariage ai had NO sexual contact with him. Was trapped financially frim getting divorced (long story). Actually we never hadva very good connecrion that way in the marriage because there was constant fighting & it did not induce my desire for him. Left 10 1/2 years ago & just now able to get the divorce. After that marriage, I am not even interested in ever getting married & because of my Christian beliefs sex outside marriage is not an option for me. Actually my life is so much more fulfilling now than in EVER was before. I have interests & activities & wonderful friends to do things with.

If by some chance God choses to provide the right match, I would consider marriage again but I had so much dysfunctional living to learn was not normal living conditions I was in all my life that this time has been valuable for learning & growing even at 65.

Interesting, all my many suicide attempts were while I was married because I was trapped & unhappy & the situation was one where my anger was turning into rage & I wanted OUT. So suicidal feelings can exist either way. Feel thankful you are NOT in a bad marriage. A lot better waiting for the right person than being miserable with the wrong one. Paul wrote something about that in the Bible.

There is a time & season for everything in our life. If we wait for the right time we won't miss it being in the wrong one.

Patience, a fruit of the spirit & is developed waiting for the RIGHT things in life that God will provide.