-sigh- its like...

i do better w/ abilify @ 20mgs than anything else. with all the supplements on board, I get good coverage w/o eps, tics, td, dysphoria...you nkow, all that stuff that comes w/ the tranquilizers.

ive never taken lithium. my depakote blood leves turned nearly toxic, quickly. trileptal was basically just a glorified sedative.

i just...dont know. my current psychiatrist is OK, but I've dealt with pricks. one publicly humiliated me. i got the medical board involved, filed a HIPPAA complaint, now I can't get a private practice doctor to treat me.

plus, its like...yes, sometimes, the drugs 'help.' but..for how long? at what costs? maybe im always waiting for something horrible to come of this?