Hi lunatic soul. Yes, your boyfriend keeps hurting you so that's not good. As for your doctor, well, he knew he had crossed the line but try to put him in the past if you can. I used to go to 12 Step meetings and found they were really quite helpful in giving me support to stay resolved to decisions I'd made. Maybe you could try those as well? I'd recommend them especially since you're in early recovery and quite emotionally vulnerable at this stage. Just put one foot in front of the other one day at a time. You can make it.