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Originally Posted by tecomsin
Back when i used to work, I found that talking about what I was working on with someone knowledgable enough to engage in a conversation helped me focus on the task. Do you get the stress reaction if you talk in detail about the work ahead, or only when you sit down to do it? Do you get it if you imagine doing the work?
There's an expression 'paralyzed with fear'. Are you afraid of work or of the stress reaction or neither or both?
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Sorry, I didn't realize I didn't reply to this yet.
I get the stress reaction when I'm to focus on looking at the task to even start. This means, I don't even get to sit down to it. It means I don't get to think in detail about it either or even at all think about it. No thoughts, no chance to focus my thinking in that direction because of the reaction. Yes, I do get the reaction if just imagining myself starting to focus on the work.
Yes it did help before to talk to someone about the piece of work but it only helped while I was talking to the person. As soon as I was to continue working on it, issues again, at best I would not have the stress reaction anymore but I would have focus issues.
It's not paralysis with fear, it's simply very strong discomfort. There is no explicit emotion in it, it's more physical seeming (but I know it's not truly physical). Maybe because of alexithymia, I don't know.
I no longer have the whole issue either with this "stress reaction" or with focus if I get to the point where things feel real enough to motivate me to start - real enough in the sense that I know there'll be consequences and that all feels REAL. And then that gives me a different reaction that motivates me and I guess the "stress reaction" has no chance to come up then. Then I will work without sleep even for days to get stuff done on time. But that's again not good obviously. And I can still get focus issues during this, if I get unlucky so it gets even harder then.