My friend has her own insecurities that I understand, and it's enough that everything is put away for her, which is good. I don't have a lot of stuff, but the stuff I was holding onto was because of the emotional "echo" I'd get from them. That moment in time when I received each one is crystalized in time, and that emotional connection to the object is still potent, which is something I need to work on within myself.
So I chose to carry forward the lessons I learned on what not to do in a relationship, and it's like I can sense the ghosts of them standing, inspiring me to do better, and be better, just so I don't have to face a delusionary impression of judgement from them. So...in a way, it makes me strive to be a better person. If that makes any sense. lol
But...since me and my friend are still new to our relationship and our status as bf/gf, I don't mind putting things away because for once, I want to grow in the here and now, not down the line in regretful reflection of the past.
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