Two more sessions until the break. Do you realise it will be almost a month we won't see each other? I cried about it today. I cried like a child because I don't want you to go. It feels like you're abandoning me, it feels unbearable and I don't know how I will make it through: I will though, won't I?

I want desperately to ask if you can see me the week you go, but I want you to offer, I want you to realise that starting your break on our day is extra painful to me, that it feels like you've done it on purpose because you don't want to have to see me. I know I won't find the courage to ask...I can't bear the thought you might reject me. Please realise, please offer, it's too long....