Tevelygo, I understand how you're feeling, I think. I also had a friend I had to get out of my life.

I was already struggling with depression because of emotional/verbal abuse on a job where my physical disabilities were exacerbated. I was slowly beginning to heal when this old friend came back into my life. She lied to me, used me, and took from me after I tried to help her.

Now I'm so angry at my old co-workers again and can't get over the anger toward my old friend. As my health continues to deteriorate, I often think, "what if she was still around?" How miserable would she make my life?

I have stopped trusting people. It's made me feel lonely and angry. Some people say just to brush it off. That's not so easy to do.

Do you have a counselor you can talk to? Someone who will offer support? I've been looking for a good counselor and just started taking an antidepressant.