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Originally Posted by TheDunce
Tevelygo, I understand how you're feeling, I think. I also had a friend I had to get out of my life.
I was already struggling with depression because of emotional/verbal abuse on a job where my physical disabilities were exacerbated. I was slowly beginning to heal when this old friend came back into my life. She lied to me, used me, and took from me after I tried to help her.
Now I'm so angry at my old co-workers again and can't get over the anger toward my old friend. As my health continues to deteriorate, I often think, "what if she was still around?" How miserable would she make my life?
I have stopped trusting people. It's made me feel lonely and angry. Some people say just to brush it off. That's not so easy to do.
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Yeah I feel for you.
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Do you have a counselor you can talk to? Someone who will offer support? I've been looking for a good counselor and just started taking an antidepressant.
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I have no idea what kind of support can be offered...? I've been to several counselors, the one before the last one (last one is very fresh) I did like to talk with so I stayed with her for over a year, but I just didn't really see how it was helping. OK, she helped me analyze some mental states and that helped me a bit, I guess. But on the whole it was all rather intellectual, because I intellectualize naturally, though she tried to make me focus more on feelings. I just think I fail in that area.
And I did need way more help in that area but it doesn't seem trivial for counselors to figure out how to give me that help. I'm alexithymic, so yeah that explains it...
Good luck to you though with finding a good counselor!