is it dreaming when you go away into your mind about things happening or that might happen, or happened?

or having like scenarios running in your mind while you are there and not present in the physical sort or...?

rumination?

i think i have been having stronger (different) symptoms...

still functioning.. but not present either...

its so difficult and challenging, hurts my feelings as well...
but im trying to cope

the memory thing is bad... at work everyone notices... losing tools... forgetting orders... asking over and over what i was getting or what we are doing

i try to focus so hard, but maybe im just stressed... trying to fix too much... or pushing myself too hard, but i dont realize.
i just keep swiming... just keep "just doing it"

thinking its fine, its going to be fine, i am fine

but having sepparate feelings as well, in conflict.. like cognitive distortion...

what is happening?
who am i?
am i dreaming, or in a coma...
or how am i accomplishing things..

sigh, im sure the context is missing.. and what i am saying will not make propper sense and cause miscommunication...

cant wait to see the doctor...