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Old Feb 24, 2018, 09:20 PM
bda1200 bda1200 is offline
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Thank you to anyone willing to read and respond. Quickly, please please don’t say anything over the top or that will feed into a belief that I am making a fatal error. This will only cause me panic at the faintest symptoms.

Briefly, I am skinny, but not overly skinny. I weigh 115 pounds and am about 5’9 and at most, 5’10 or so. I am on 900 mg Lithium. I also have gastrointestinal issues and cannot eat much; I eat about a small meal a day some days. Anyway, I began exercising a few weeks ago and it made me feel like I was gaining a sense of control as I was losing weight. My life is a mess and I hate myself, but this sense of control and weight loss gave me peace. One day I looked older and very tired and I began to like myself. I wanted to look thinner and started to feel this sense of control over my circumstances.

I want to keep doing this and get my weight down to maybe 105 and stop. My concern is I am going to end up killing myself accidentally because I don’t eat, am overexercising burning calories I don’t have, am losing weight, and taking 900 mg of Lithium. I’m concerned it is going to become toxic to me. Yet, I don’t want to give up the weight loss. I finally like how I look and feel! I love the control.

Am I going to end up accidentally hurting mysel? Please don’t feed into this because it will only cause me panic at the faintest symtpoms. I fear death only because I feel I am going to a worse place.

Please scientific, objective answers only. Thank you!