She didn't respond to the text so i didn't call. Cancel that sleep thing. It just ain't happening. I hate my bed, really my pathetic Walmart futon. I gave her my brand new, ultra comfortable bed (it looked like most of my nights would be spent there anyway and I wasn't using it).

I know she's asleep. I've been around her during this so I know. This medicine is so quick to put her to sleep. She is so scared for her Son though. I just feel I should be there, not in a romantic sense necessarily but, I could really do that. Watch her Son and Her while they sleep. Why aren't I there? This is so hard. I'm an insomiac anyway. Yeah, being awake is a course of nature for me anyway. I can do it.

Oh Christ, this is crushing me. I need help. How did God ever expect us to handle this stuff alone?

We'll get it right. God knows what he's doing.