Assuming your T allows out of session contact, why do you contact them then? Aside from scheduling, I guess. Also, if you have multiple ways to contact them, how do you choose? e.g. email, text, phone

My T usually says at the end of session to call her if I need to. I don't know what this means, though I've tried talking about it with her a few times. I know she wants me to call if I am (imminently) "not safe" but even then... I'm not sure. Shouldn't that be a 911 call? (Also, frankly, why do they think I would call before ending my life? If I've decided I'm doing that, I know reaching out would only impede my ability to complete it, but I digress...)

When I'm more depressed I think about calling my T... but she can't do anything. She can't make it stop hurting. I don't know what I would even say. So what would the point be? End result would be me still sad, hurting and alone, but her having lost some of *her* time off. Do it enough and she'll resent me for it. I don't like to present problems that can't be solved, and since that is kind of the definition of me... she should at least get a break and not constantly have it shoved to the top of her mind.

So, if you contact your T between sessions, what for and how? What can they do for you?