The subject says it all. I'm exhausted... just by living day after day. I am having the worst case of anxiety lately. I am severely worried about so many things 24 hours a day. If someone I care about says one simple thing such as, "I have a headache" or even if I have a headache my first reaction is that something is severely wrong. I get so worried and panic that today it literally just stopped me in my tracks. It's not just things like that... it's EVERYTHING. I can't even explain it. My brain is on overload.

It sounds unreal but I remember having this exact feeling as early as age four... and it just gets worse and worse as life goes on. It always affects my sleep too. My nightmares began at a very early age (probably around age 4) and I still have them. I actually went on a 'sleep strike' once when I was little because I was afraid to go to sleep and have more nightmares... but the longer I stayed awake the more I worried about everyone and everything else.

I know this may sound foolish but I think a very big part of me is terrified to get help partly because I've never known how to feel any other way. It's really hard to explain...

On top of battling all that, I'm still struggling with my depression (moderately), social anxiety (severely), and OCD (moderately). I'm so tired and drained (mentally and physically)... I would go to sleep now... but that would stir up more problems...
Thanks for listening.