4 months to be exact!

Before I was lucky if I got "some" once or twice a month.

Sex is now completely non existent in my marriage. I am 22 years old, young, hormonal and dammit I want sex...and I want it with some damn effort too.

I've blamed him for a very long time and thought maybe I was getting fat and unattractive...but it's not it. I think deep down although I'm not getting laid, I'm relieved. Before when sex was at a normal pace (feels long long long ago) I felt disgusted when my husband touched me and he never turned me on in anyway.

Sleeping next to him in the same bed is nonexistent as well now. We don't even sleep together, have sex, give oral, not even the quickie bathroom sex before he goes to work....nada, nothing.

Everyday I tell myself, well if I lose some weight and get toned then I can just make a "friend" and get sex that a way. Now I know why people complain when they don't get any...because now I want some too and odviously think and plan of ways to get it.

This is soooo dysfunctional and just a tip of the iceberg here.

What should I do?????