Thanks again for continuing to read and post. I wish for your weekend to be a most pleasant one.

It seems like change is a possibility, but in order to change, she would need to be open to change, conscious of considering change and her behavior, a willingness to change and so on. With that said, if she is not open, conscious, willing and so on, change will not even probably be a passing thought in her mind.

Thanks for the advice. I still am struggling mightily and am trying to takes steps forward in living my life, healing, recovering and more. The more that I research, reflect and think, I seem to be of the perspective that I am and was not only traumatized (and hurt and so on,) but the extreme level of trauma seems to be high (even extreme) and how extremely traumatized I still am (and have been and hurt and so on.)

Moreover, I still am in love with her, have feelings to be with her and so on, but as stated in multiple posts already, I simultaneously acknowledge that she used me (and, maybe, abused) me, dictated and controlled how she and I communicated and interacted post breakup and more. What was once an intimate and intense bond (of love for me) now seems to be a traumatic bond (that is still intense and intimate.)

As you are more than aware, the act of giving advice is far different from accepting the advice (especially after analyzing if it is indeed advice, helpful and so on.) Additionally, situations like these are not "simple," "easy," and/or or without investments, commitments and so on.

If I may ask, why do you consider yourself "stuck" in the relationship and why do you stay? If you choose to not reply, reply to how ever much of an extent or what ever you choose is more than fine.

Thanks again.