I still hear voices but am surviving. I have no one here though. So, it is tough. I go here and there but the voices follow me everywhere. Sometimes, they are quiet then out of the blue they come back. I wonder if I'm ok physically. I eat a lot. My mood is not bad but am eating like a horse. I am beginning to gain weight and look like a little bear. I need to watch out. I eat a lot from stress. I like eating. I go places where I have never gone. I went to Wolfgang Puck's pizza joint the other day but was not satisfied. They are very expensive and their pepperoni pizza was too salty. I drank about five glasses of water- terrible. I also ate a farmer's breakfast today. Then, I had cheesecake with blueberry. I looked at my arms today and was repulsed. I look like tiny bear. I am wearing the same clothes but think I must have gained 20 pounds in the past month. I look huge in comparison than before. I am not too tall but am wide. Let's put is this way- I'm fat but not too fat yet. So, I'm sad again. I need to eat less and walk more. It is not easy. I eat a lot because I hear voices which stress me out. It is sad indeed.