Some of the urges that sometimes seem to overwhelm me are out of character, embarrassing and the kind of thing that I wouldn't share on a public forum. I've had urges to break things in my house or bang things, which I've resisted but at the moment it just seems like I have to do it.

Reaching for a toke of weed also has an impulsive quality to it. i get a thought or a feeling that makes me feel angry, 'bad' or anxious and then want to alleviate the feeling because it seems unbearable.

This urge to break things is a new symptom btw.