Yes I take:

rexulti 2 mg (AP)

synthroid 50 mcg,

wellbutrin 300 mg XL (AD)

propanolol 10 mg (physical symptoms of anxiety)

olanzapine 1.25 mg (switching over from olanzapine to rexulti)

lyrica 50 mg prn for sleep.


Marijuana seems to be highly person dependent and probably also state dependent in terms of whether the benefits outweigh the risks. I'd like to just get off it and not feel the desire for the escape from being me. I had succeeded to stay off it for a few months not that long ago but slipped back into daily usage again.


I think my thoughts are what triggers me. I feel bad about myself and how far my life has spiralled downward. I feel angry about having a mental illness.


That's a great idea about buying time. I had CBT for a couple of years some time ago, so am just rusty and need to brush up and get motivated that it is possible to improve symptoms and not just decay relentlessly into an abyss.