Thanks everyone. When she asked if we wanted to try integration, we froze....like walking up to a door to another life not sure of wanting to open it.

Mix emotions of fear, excitement, bewilderment, dazed, panic, anxiety all flooded in at once. Last I remember was her putting her scribblings away...

I still have her number. I’m in a much better frame of mind then a few years ago when.

Can one fear getting better? Or being told there is no hope? I’ve heard of that one before.