Thank you for sharing Nola. That's an interesting observation. I do think an obsessive quality has developed in my angry depression because I am feeling the need to act on some kind of anger or rage over daily occurrences. It is worse when I am tired, especially early in the morning when my cat has woken me up again. My emotional regulation is worse then. I am also bargaining and trying to displace from what I want to do into something relatively harmless. Like I'll pick something up and pretend to throw it against the wall without actually doing it. I read on a different thread about a fellow who pretends to punch those around him. What I am doing is not so different except he's 17 and I'm 54 and have never done this before on a regular basis.