Wildflower, I'm so sorry. I worked until my back surgery/injury, then a year later had my psychosis.

I was unmedicated raising my son. I remember the STRESS!!! It was so hard! My mom did help on weekends tho.

But you're not this horrible mother. You are going through a tough time right now. I think you're mixed. Maybe you could go back on invega and get metformin for the high prolactin? I heard they do that. I'm on 3 mgs of invega and 5 mgs of Zyprexa, it's working for me. Yes I've gained weight, but I lost some too recently.

Being a single bp, working mom is really hard. Give yourself some credit.