I think I need someone to just spout to at times. I get an image of bulldozers and jackhammers....a pressured scenario. The last thing I need is pressure for that leads to frustration and triggers.

I go through love/hate relations with everyone....idk. Put pressure on me I’ll push back- not very therapeutic. Also I have a need to please to the point I can have a breakdown in failure.

I don’t like being pushed, controlled, pressurized, studied, poked and prodded, stressed....they are all triggers. We almost died after talking to her as I was walking around on a freeway ramp dissociated and drained.

I can’t see normality.