Hi, all. I’m unwell. I was non-psych IP, then involuntarily committed yet no psych ward as head hospital psychiatrist reversed it. Ruled out stroke or brain aneurysm.

My pdoc is very worried about me, he told my bf. I’ve been very confused with huge short term memory lapses. I am dehydrated from vomiting so much, no appetite.

It was odd being IP in regular hospital unit. My bf is taking care of me. Trying to avoid going back. See my pdoc tomorrow.

Pdoc of mine thinks depersonalization or disassociated from cumulative losses/trauma. We will see. He wants me to get into therapy ASAP and referral given. Bf will call tomorrow. Non insurance coverage but that’s Medicare for ya...

I appreciate any hugs here.

I’ll be back to support you all as soon as I can. I’m not psychotic or having an episode. I feel floating, brain in a blender.

Maybe I’ll lurk..I dunno. I’m scared. But no stroke or brain aneurysm.

Had to cancel trip to a state I want to relocate to...was going this week. Oh, well. Next month. Estate hasn’t been finalized yet, anyway. Money doesn’t buy happiness but I want to move except pdoc is great. Maybe I could fly “home” for monthly visit. Getting ahead of myself.

Rambling.

TLDR; I’m unwell but will support you as soon as I can.