This is how I feel. I feel like I’m depressed yes manic but not as intense as each one normally is. I take lithium an just started Abilify and I feel like I’m inside my own body screaming while the rest of the world doesn’t hear me. Is this the way normal feels? I’m scared, and lost, and I’m angry with my therapist and doctor. I don’t know why I’m even here. I’ve never felt more alone. I just don’t know.