Hi everyone this is my first post so hope I'm posting this in the right place.

I'm currently having therapy because I've suffered with depression anxiety and an eating disorder for quite a long time, but feel like I don't have anyone to talk to in my life about this situation besides my therapist. My friends don't understand because they have never worked or had children so think I'm exaggerating or will get over it soon. I hope I will find some comfort talking about it here.

I work in childcare as an assistant for my mum who runs the childcare business from her home. We had a little girl in our care for 2 years. When she first came to use she was about 8 months old, we had her 11 hours a day 5 days a week - along with other children of course. Just before Christmas, her mum told us there were a change in circumstances and that she wouldn't need us to look after the little girl anymore as she would be staying home with her dad. I honestly was and still am completely devastated. I had built SUCH a strong bond with this little girl. She followed me everywhere I went, she spend both her 1st and 2nd birthday at our house, I saw all the milestones - first steps, first words, when she started solid foods, literally everything. I was devastated and tbh I just can't get over it. She left over 2 months ago and I'm just missing her beyond belief. I don't really know how to cope. I cry every night in the shower where no one can see me then try and put on a brave face.

I just wish her mum would call and say she's coming back!