((((((Seesaw)))))) The good news is that weight and health can be improved upon and changed. This is something you do have control over. So perhaps start with a brand new health regiment... eating healthier foods, exercising more, and getting into a routine for yourself. You can definitely lose the extra weight if you dedicate yourself to the task. It will take determination and will power as well as discipline to exercise each week. But you can do it!!!! I have a feeling that if you lost some of the extra weight you've put on, you will feel a whole lot better about yourself and when looking at photos of yourself. I am not saying you have to lose weight, because as I've said before, I think you are beautiful just as you are, but if it is bothering you and making you feel less attractive, then losing some weight will help you to feel better about yourself.

Also, try not to be so hard on yourself. We can be our own worst critics! As I've said to you before, you have a ton going for you. You are very smart, you are very successful in your career, you are a caring, perceptive and compassionate person, with a lot of personal insight into life and the world. You have so much to offer the right person. Please be kind to yourself.. see value in yourself.. see yourself as I see you, because there is so much that is wonderful, beautiful and amazing about you.

Also, never say never, as I was saying last night. It is easy to think this way, as I was recently feeling this way as well. But you never know when you may meet someone, you don't know who you're going to come across in life or when, and cupid's arrow could hit at any time. We cannot predict the future. We have no way of knowing..... so love IS possible at any time. (((((Hugs))))))