My anxiety is out of control. I keep worrying that my school is tracking me through the cameras and my key card. Like they know that I leave every day during my prep and they’re going to reprimand me for it. Even though you’re allowed to do that, I still feel like they’re targeting me and they’re going to say something.

I’m also extremely worried about being stopped by police while driving. I’m constantly looking for cops. I mean as a plus I strictly adhere to the speed limit now. I don’t kno why I’m so worried. I’m kind of afraid they would find something to arrest me for, like claim I’m high or something or plant drugs on me or something. Or that they would mark me as a mental patient and arrest me for that. I haven’t been pulled over in two years though.

I know this stuff probabaly isn’t happening but...what if it is? I mean I guess the school thing isn’t that big of a deal because worst thing they could do is fire me, which would only help at this point. But I really want to avoid police at all costs. I don’t trust them at all.

I’m soooo tired because I woke up at 3:15 and was up for two hours and then fell back asleep for another 45 mins until my alarm went off. I really should have just stayed awake. I wouldn’t be as tired.

But my mind is not cooperating with me. I tried to complete the work for class today but I couldn’t concentrate. I wrote down the answers at least so I’m not completely unprepared l.

No days off until the end of March unless I take fmla, in which case I have to get a docto note for each day I take. Ugh.