I actually worry about being accused of this - especially as I am going from assessment to assessment and being judged now that I have entered the (Canadian) Veterans' Affairs system. I worry that I won't be able to demonstrate I am sick enough to receive benefits. I worry they will judge me unworthy. I have made a habit of the opposite - of pretending there is nothing wrong with me. I have made a habit of trying to appear normal. As such it is difficult to be entirely honest with my practitioners. Will the therapist and case worker see through this facade and recognize the very frightened 'actor' within?