Coming from someone who is not white, I can empathize. You must detach yourself from stereotypical European standards of beauty. F*** them all.

I don't have much advice, except that I think your concerns and anxieties are valid because the world beats us down. Don't take any ******** about people telling you that you're not different or not as stereotypically beautiful. Don't let them dismiss the racism because it's there, and you're not going crazy.

You need to swagger when you feel like you can't and be better than all of them. F*** them all, f*** the world.

Also, surround yourself with people who share your culture and your skin color. It can be a breath of fresh air, especially if you lack diversity in your life.