Oh so sorry to hear all this has happened to you.

Could a Women's Abuse Shelter have resources available that can help you? They deal only with the immediate need of women, but in the end they have resources available to help the women once they leave the shelters. Maybe there are support groups and group therapys that also can help you, so that you don't have to go into a hospital to cope.

Let them know what is happening to you. Ask them how they can help you. I am sure they will find ways.

So worried about you staying there with no outside help.
Family members are not good sources to turn to in these situations. It is so much better to confide outside them.

Keep safe, and look forward to a new life as years come and go fast. You will find happiness. Please try to look forward to this. It will happen.

Good luck.

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