I'd write that 10-page email, print it out and take it with you to T. In fact, I would write everything you feel out--no corrections, all cuss words, whatever--until you get it out of your system. Even if it ends up a thousand pages of nothing but stream of consciousness phrases and exclamation marks, at least it's out of your head. (A lesson I learned from another writer.) I find when I do that I'm exhausted but calmer.

I also don't go out and see, or make new, friends IRL. I have started venturing out into other online writing groups through WordPress. I feel good about that.

Hope you can still see T.

Big hugs.