Justy, I am so sorry that you were hurt like that. It is overflowing because it needs to be dealt with and guilt is a bad word so leave that behind. You are going to manage and you are going to live. My spiritual belief for the day is: "%#@&#! Happens" In all seriousness, it's the only sense I can make in a world where there is such pain and suffering. It just happens. Look at the tsunami victims. Were they somehow bad and therefore deserved to die? No, we know better. You are a wonderful compassionate woman and I wish for your success every day.