Yes. I need the T I have. I have specific issues that others may be able to help with, but that she specializes in. Not only that, I saw a different T who specialized in my issues and she was terrible.

This T is the first one that I clicked with and who I feel understands me and my issues. I worry that my insistence that she is the only one I want means that eventually something bad will happen and I won't be able to see her and that terrifies me.